I am not sure what is going on with me, but the past few weeks I have been feeling extremely sad, anxious, and guilty about baby #2 arriving in the next couple weeks. I feel bad for my Liam (18 months). I feel like I am letting him down. I feel like I’m stealing away his babyhood (is that a word?) Not only that, but I wonder HOW IN THE HELL I am going to love another child as much as I love Liam. It doesn’t even seem possible! Will this change the WAY I love him? Or our special bond?
Yes, yes I KNOW this is normal and a sibling for Liam is a precious gift, but I cannot help but feel this way! I know all the words of encouragement you could give me, I know this! BUT, this is real life. This is the stuff I wish I was warned about. Everyone tells me now that it only lasts for a few weeks, and once she arrives all feelings change, and I cannot wait for that!
Until then, I am literally soaking up every minute I have with my sweet boy while he is still my only, and first child. He gets a little more attention, a little extra squeeze, and a LOT more kisses. OH, and lots and lots of photos. Even though I am sure that will continue after baby arrives. I literally just stare at him and cannot believe he is mine!
I know in my heart we will ALWAYS have our special Mommy/Liam bond, and ditto with his Daddy and him. I AM excited to add this second child to the mix of our crazy lives, and I’m so curious about how the dynamic of our little family will change.
I love hearing your stories and experiences about this topic, feel free to send any words of wisdom my way!